Queen Know It All

I became aware that an old familiar attitude prevailed in one of my conversations yesterday. It is the "I know-it-all" attitude of one who speaks with authority about something when she knows nothing. I am so compelled to 'know' and 'understand' the things that I deem important I can hardly stand myself sometimes. I often walk away from conversations chiding myself for some know-it-all comment I made. Well, I am finally asking God about the whys and wherefores of this ugly habit. I am asking Him for understanding for the renewing of my mind against this distorted image. I haven't heard His answer yet, so until I do I dub myself: 'Queen Know It All'. By His grace I will replace this habit with the true image that He sees of me in Christ. I want the focus of my conversations with others to glorify Him and not to be a stumbling block, tempting others to think on things that are not lovely.
I await in anticipation of what He will show me because I'm off to the Word for my treasure hunt. I am excavating for wisdom and understanding of the uniqueness of my gift of discernment. Funny, I didn't even consider I had this gift until about 4 months ago when Pastor Rob asked, "Do you have the gift of discernment?"
"Me? No. I don't have that gift!" Well, it got me thinking and asking God a lot of questions. I still know very little about discernment as a spiritual gift. I didn't realize why so many God fearing believers couldn't understand me or why I felt their rejection so often. For example, sometimes Father God allows me to 'feel' His heart with a glimpse of one of His many different feelings. Or, I may be aware of a demon here, and then one there, and recognizing the scheme they devised. This experience is normal for me but I am starting to understand why I am often considered odd or 'way out there'. I was so blind not to see how I thought everyone needed to be aware of what I see.
My husband has lived with me for almost 24 years. He is the most gracious person of anyone I have ever met.
Father, may we be good stewards of the gifts You bestow on us, with wisdom and understanding, as a people who stand before You unashamed.