Evil Must Prevail AND I Must Still Fight

Dear Nancy Grace at CNN,

A Russian Immigrant family was brutalized on their own property by police in Marion County, Salem, Oregon. Police refused to leave even though the reason for the 911 call had been resolved. The family, excitedly speaking Russian to one another for the safe return of their son/ husband, gave police permission to leave and the police refused and became enraged. This is the short version.

Alex (26) went for a walk in the late night without giving notice and his Mom and wife thought he drowned in their pond. They called 911. Alex arrived back home shortly after the police got there and the encounter escalated with Police tasing him for a continuous 60-90 seconds. His pregnant wife was left alone in parent's home as 5 of 6 family handcuffed/ tased/ no rights read to them/ and hauled off to jail. Charges of Rioting were filed. One sister cited is only 17 and an American citizen, born in this country! No media coverage aired though 18 police, ER responders and media present (filming), most of whom watched and laughed. This occurred July 24, 2009. No joke. Please pray for this family and these cops. Please reply if you find this note worthy news.

Fallacious citations of rioting issued. Arraignment 8/24/09 resulted in Judge issuing a court order the family was not to have any contact with one another. Wife to move away from husband and their home of 15 years, 17 year old sister to move away from brother's Corvallis house. This is Salem, Oregon, USA!!!

Marion County has power hungry police, judges, and public servants.

Their attorney appealed and the next day, 8/25/09, with the family traveling a second day to learn court order reduced to kids cannot have contact with parents. Their stories are full of holes and lies. This is an outrage.

I just learned of another incidence in Marion County. A couple rebellious teenagers called police from payphone and reported fallaciously that his Russian parents beat him and all the other kids in the family and though charges unfounded, parents jailed and all children relocated, even 2 week old baby at the time. Imagine being 2 weeks postpartum/ breastfeeding and being taken from your baby. Now, 100 families in Marion County are under investigation by Marion County officials because they signed a petition they supported the disciplinary actions of the Russian couple jailed!!!

I expect a reply. I will send this info to another if I do not receive a reply, but you are my first/ best choice.
From a soul who has a passion to fight for justice on behalf of these violated citizens of a corrupt Salem, Oregon County.

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Rebuked In Love

God rebuked me during Morning Prayer because I wrongly handled a prophecy He gave me. I interjected my own thought. It was a painful enough lesson that I learned it well. It will not be a repeated mistake anytime soon. This is what God told me later in the day,

“You are to speak only what I give you. Do not add your words or thoughts to it. Do not venture your opinion or interpretation into it. Do not omit something because you do not understand it’s meaning. I require obedience and a close ear to My word. It is then that your prayer will be heard.”

The prophecy I spoke during morning prayer was: I heard the Father say. "The Holy Spirit is crying at his feet," (the feet of the young man for whom we were all interceding). I then saw a woman kneeling at his feet and wiping the tears with her hair. Before I heard or saw anything more, I had this thought and spoke it out, “It is hard to imagine the Holy Spirit as a woman.” Whereupon, the prophecy ended as I was no longer in the Spirit. I know there was to be more but I had no confidence to continue as the word of the Spirit left me. I pray the continuation of that word be given to this brother through someone else.

I cherish the discipline of the Lord. I find great confidence and security knowing his love will keep me in right relationship with Him and He does this in the gentlest way necessary. Six months ago I heard Him speak most clearly and loudly,

“You will be judged for every word that comes out of your mouth.” I have known of this truth for many years, but with these two rebukes from Him, I know this truth.

An Atrocity

A Russian Immigrant family was brutalized on their own property by police in Marion County, Oregon. Police refused to leave even though the reason for the 911 call had been resolved. The family, excitedly speaking Russian to one another for the safe return of their son and husband, gave police permission to leave and the police refused and became enraged. This is the short version. Alex (26) went for a walk in the late night without giving notice and his Mom and wife thought he drowned in their pond. They called 911. Alex arrived back home shortly after the police got there and the encounter escalated with Police tasing him for continuous 60-90 sec. His pregnant wife was left alone in parent's home as 5 of 6 family handcuffed/ tased/ no rights read to them/ and hauled off to jail. Charges of Rioting were filed.

Arraignment is Tuesday, 8/25/09. No media coverage though 18 police, ER responders and media present, most of whom watched and laughed. This occurred July 24, 2009. No joke. Please pray for this family.

FIVE VIRGINS / ONLY HALF RAPTURED?

What if only 50% of The Church qualified for the rapture. What if only Christians who were completely sold out to Jesus were raptured and the lukewarm, unrepentant or those satisfied with fire insurance from hell were left behind.

Remember the Ten virgin men? Italics mine. What if all ten are of the house of God and five of the didn't have enough oil in their lamp or any extra for the anticipated delay. What if the delay represents times of living our lives as if God didn't really care? or apathy, or laziness, or self satisfaction or satisfaction with what this world has to offer? That is just another reason I believe the church is in for some very rough times, times that appear as if the seven years of tribulation has already begun. But has it? Those who have a true relationship with the Father and keep His commandments, they will survive and endure to the rapture. The great time of testing will be endured by those believers on the fence.

"From the days of John the Baptist, until now, the Kingdom of God suffers violence and violent men take it by force." Matthew 11:12

THE TIME TO BE EARNEST IN PRAYER IS NOW!

To Hate Evil

God desires us to hate evil and the evil way.

The fear of the LORD is to hate evil;
pride and arrogance and the evil way, and the perverted mouth, I hate. Proverbs 8:13

These are my recent focus.

Putting Off the Old Title

I just removed from my identity the first "handle" or "title" that I had embraced as an 18 year old new baby christian.

"A Grain of Sand To Irritate the Oyster"

This is a bold, outrageous lie from Satan. I was able to easily believe this lie as from the Lord because it was a glorified version of my perverted identity when I was lost and part of the domain of the world and dwelling in the lair of deceit. It was even personally modified through the years as I grew in the grace and knowledge of who I am in Christ in order to make it sound more like truth. Therefore, it gradually became "A Grain of Sand To Create the Pearl." I never was this identity but because the enemy had me believing I was, He was able to keep in my life other lies. Many, many lies have died to me as I grew, but God is loosening a few powerful strongholds in my life that are all attached to lies that I held on to tenaciously.

I have been going through Breaking Free by Beth Moore. So far, two very powerful, insidious lies with strongholds in my life are being torn down and though this is just the beginning of an arduous journey, some of the fruit of repentance is already very sweetly tasted.

Praise be to Jesus for His bountiful grace! And for the gracious love of my husband, children and church family.

A New Title Is Received

Until I received release from the captivity that held me as "Queen Know It All," I struggled to understand some of my unattractive behaviors and why they continued to plagued me without any enduring victory over them.

Since repenting of the idolatry over my pride that encased and fortified the lie I once believed, I have been receptive to receive more correction from God. I can truly say, I am comforted by the discipline of the Lord.

During corporate prayer, He opened the eyes of my heart to see how I have been given a passion to know and understand all things pertaining to love and relationships since my earliest days. My pride perverted that passion, turning me into Queen Know It All. Therefore, I am having another cavernous vein that an idol once occupied, washed by the word of my gracious Father in Heaven, replaced with the truth and filled with His Holy Spirit.

It all started when God awakened me that night at 3AM to pray. Even though I spent the next 2 hours randomly praying, I wasn't sure what it was I was to be praying about and it felt as if I accomplished a total of 20 minutes of actual praying. I should have opened my bible that was right within my reach because I had the light turned on already anyway, but the enemy managed to keep me from doing so. Instead, I spent a lot of the time pondering what I have been learning from the bible recently along with a couple verses I've meditated on for years. Looking back, though I felt my time was unproductive or inefficient, I saw the benefit of it in early morning prayer when He broke my heart once again for my sin of pride.

Job was considered blameless. He was not considered sinless. He offered sacrifices for his sin and the sin of all his family in case any of them had sinned the evening before. I am learning to keep short accounts. I may not be aware of my sin or the separation from God that it caused but He is, and He is able to give us a spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and strength, the spirit of knowledge and the fear of the LORD. May He cause the Spirit of the LORD to rest upon us. Isaiah 11

"Jesus, let's see now, what can my new title be?"

Jesus Meets The Saints In The Air

It appears there are 2 periods of time when the saints meet Jesus in the air. His return at the end of the age when His arrival will be obvious to all on the earth, as lightning that strikes in the East and flashes to the West. There will be no doubt or question and every knee will bow.

But the Word implies He will meet us when we are raptured, though I believe this meeting will not be visible or obvious to any left upon the earth at that time.

Now about the 10 virgins. I have always pictured 10 females. God refers to the 144,000, whose foreheads will bear the mark (seal) of God, as virgins. What if the 10 virgins are symbolic of those saints who dwell on the earth at the time right before the rapture occurs. Oil has symbolized the Holy Spirit. Again, is there really any possible hope for rapture insurance as some believers are counting on their born again salvation experience as their guarentee they will avoid eternal damnation? Once saved always saved? Jesus mentions to one of the 7 churches of erasing their name from the Lamb's book of life unless they repent. Does being saved guarrentee candidacy for the rapture? Name written in the Lamb's book of life so it's in the bag no matter what? I think it is much truer to the character of God to require blamelessness as Job for deliverence from the great time of testing for all man upon the earth during the terrible tribulation.

And could the tribulation have already begun with all the persecution in other nations? Is the anti-christ revealed to the whole world or just a priviledged few at first? The first seal that the Lamb of God breaks is the anti-christ rising to power. And Jesus says to the church of Smyrna as knowing their suffering, poverty and tribulation, though they are rich. Then, encouraging them to keep enduring, with the announcement of 10 days of persecution they will endure by being put into prison and martyrdom before they are removed and spared the time of great testing? They have already proven themselves faithful and blameless. It stands to reason they would be spared the end of the age tribulation.

At this moment:
I believe only the saints who are blameless as they stand before the Lord will be raptured, and therefore, escape the time of great testing.
Jesus' return to this earth will be overwhelmingly obvious and awesome and saints from this earth will meet Him in the sky.
This will be the end of the age.

Could the beginning of a new age be when tribulation saints who endure to the end will reign and rule during the 1,000 years Satan is bound. They will rule over the tribulation oppressors and enemies of the cross of Jesus. These immoral people will not be allowed through the gates into the New Jerusalem.
These saints who died and endured during the tribulation will be of the first ressurection while others who died through the ages remain asleep. Blessed are those who are a part of the first ressurection.
When Satan is released, he will be allowed to rise to power, gather his armies and fight for one hour. His defeat will be total and complete.

Then, the second ressurection with the separation of goats and sheep and the great white throne judgment for all not covered in the blood of Jesus.
Satan cast into hell for all eternity.
I am sure my whole existence upon this earth will flash before my eyes to appreciate the horror of and the cost Jesus paid for my sin.
And the saints whose names are written in the Lamb's book of life attend an awards banquet where they are recognized and honored for all their deeds in the name of Jesus.
We could all have positions of varying degrees of authority according to our stewardship during our time spent here.

After evil is judged and cast away for all eternity, the new heaven and earth will be as it was with the garden of Eden before the fall.

Bottom line, Jesus is Lord and the Father is exhalted and glorified by Jesus and the sevenfold Spirit of God - the Holy Spirit, and through the saints who walk humbly with Him.

Job Prayed For His 3 Friends. So Who Was Elihu?

Having just repented of my Idolatry, and while still in my prayer closet, God directed me to Job. He had me take note of who was saying what. I differentiated which "comforter" of Job's 3 friends was speaking, when Job answered and the rebukes Elihu gave Job. The Holy Spirit had me notice that Job prayed for his 3 friends: Eliazar, Zofar and Bildad. So who was Elihu? After writing that question down in my bible, I went back and reread what Elihu said.

I sensed right way what God was telling me and His answer was plausible but I felt safe in pondering His answer before speaking of it to anyone. I shared this information with someone after prayer tonight and their response encouraged me so I feel free to write this down.

Elihu was a young man whom Satan used because of his pride and unclean lips. He is filled with the prince of the air due to the pride of his flesh. There is no mention of his arrival, his relation to Job or his departure. God does not recognize him. He only acknowledged him as the one who speaks condemnation lies, mixed within the truth, for the destruction of Job's confidence in God and his blameless position before the Maker.

Pray for all the saints daily, saturate your heart with the truth of God and renounce the lies of the enemy.

I Believed the Lie, Fortified It by Pride, and It Became My Idol

Wednesday early morning prayer became a grotesque experience with me monopolizing the whole hour. It was perfect timing for God to reveal to me the stronghold that I had been seeing evidenced in myself during corporate prayer for over 18 months.

Afterward, I went up to a brother and thanked him for reading the passage in Colosians to love one another. I proceeded to tell him how I knew I was difficult to love, that I was odd and not easily lovable. I couldn't "hear" what he was saying until after he said it at least 4 times, "You are lovable." I kept thinking, 'Well duh.' But my heart didn't believe the truth of the knowledge that was buried in my head. I assured him I heard what he was saying and planned to go home and talk to God about it. Well, this is what I learned from the Holy Spirit that morning as I heard Him say,

"You believed a lie: 'You are unlovable.' that Satan indoctrinated into your developing mind, while in utero, as an unwanted pregnancy. As you experienced rejection upon rejection,the lie was reinforced. Still believing the lie, you allowed the enemy to fortify a stronghold around the lie. Then, as you increased in knowledge of the love of Jesus, you justified the lie with pride saying, 'I am odd because I am special. I have a special calling on my life and I just don't need friends.' This fortified your pride around the lie. Pride took hold to become an idol. You have established an idol in your heart. An idol of your own pride of being odd, because you believe the lie instead of the truth." Thus saith the Lord.

Now that was a first for me! I heard the Holy Spirit clearly expose, explain and rebuke me all at the same time that morning. It was just 2 days earlier I was in my prayer closet bawling my eyes out in repentance, but this time I felt like vomiting. I was so disgusted I was more angry than tearful but repentance was definitely the desired result. It is amazing how hearing a sermon weeks ago about idolatry, going home and reading Isaiah 44 and Jeremiah 10 as Pastor recommended, then refreshing the info of Idolatry this week studying Beth Moore's Breaking Free workbook, I strained to search my heart for idols before finally asking God to show me any. Why did I waste all that time when I could have just asked Him in the first place. Man, that was a prayer He delighted in answering. I have not because I ask not. I am constantly needing to learn to keep asking God what it is He wants me to pray or what it is He wants me to ask Him. May it never be said of me, "She had not because she asked not."

Sign Reads: "I AM GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE UNLESS YOU TELL ME ABOUT JESUS!"

How will they know unless someone tells them? Wouldn't it be great if everyone whose name was written in the Lamb's book of life had a sign around their neck that read: "I am desperately searching for Jesus. Does anyone know Him?"

Someone told me last week of having something to share with me for the past 18 months but they haven't shared it with me because they knew I wouldn't receive it. Now that didn't feel like the way Jesus would have handled the situation but He used it. That same morning, my husband informed me I had an ugly old lady hair from my chin. He is very tactful because I actually had about 5 long chin hairs with a few unwanted mustache hairs as well. But he told me as if it was so obvious he couldn't believe I had allowed it to remain there. I remember responding to him, "Honey, I'm blind! How would I know unless you tell me?" Because I am now forced to wear reading glasses, I don't enjoy spending much time in front of the mirror. Besides, at 53 I have a face with a bazillion wrinkles, and I just plain don't enjoy looking into the mirror anymore. I actually used to be very beautiful once upon a time. (sigh). What I do thrive on is looking into the mirror of the Word and through the lives and hearts of others. Well anyway, I bawled my eyes out that morning because 18 months is a long time to suffer others to a blindspot of mine. And though my wounded pride was an issue, it bothered me to think of all it did to affect God's honor and glory. But Praise be to God in the highest!! He is faithful and his loving kindness brings us to repentance. Within 3 days, He revealed to me the ugly lie He wanted me to see and repent of (though I still do not know what that girl was thinking of telling me for the past 18 months).

When a brother or sister has a sin or blind spot, it may be obvious to many others. This does not mean we are to assume someone else will tell them about it, nor should we assume it is obvious to themselves. DUH. Blind spot!

If we love one another as Christ loves the church, praying about it is the start but saying something about it may also be the loving thing to do. I literally felt as if I had a piece of dark green spinach stuck on my front tooth from lunchtime. Then realizing it while washing my hands for dinner, after spending the afternoon with a large group of friends. Sometimes it is our responsibility to speak the truth in love. Of course, bathed in prayer and waiting on the Lord is critical, especially if they don't know us well, but obedience to God and love for Him is always to be our motive. We are not responsible for the blind man's reaction if he rejects our assistance.

But it sure would be helpful if I could wear a sign that read, "I am quick to repent if you tell me in love."

Regarding The 7 Churches of Asia Minor

I have been studying Daniel, Revelations and Ezekiel off and on for the past 6 months. I am starting to understand why I am so compelled to go around and shake people by the shoulders and say, "Wake up. Wake up."

It appears as if it is possible that only 2 of the 7 churches (as a whole, in their entirety) will qualify for the rapture while the lukewarm saints remain on this earth for the great testing of man. Remember, it will be as a thief in the night with no time to go get more oil. Two in the field side by side, one goes and one stays; then, two in a bed and one goes while the other is left behind. Look at Smyrna and Philadelphia. God has only commendation for them and no complaint. Though faithful few from the other churches could rapture, those churches are exhorted to repent and truly hear what the Spirit is saying to the 7 churches.

I personally am secure in my relationship with Christ and am sold out, growing in grace and knowledge and I pray with out ceasing and daily for all the saints. As a fruit inspector, all my christian friends and associates are sold out to Jesus. It is my neighbor (in this city or that city) who needs to hear the truth about Jesus, and it is unloving to withhold the truth from them.

The angel of the church of Smyrna commends these believers for travailing through great suffering and then tribulation persecution for 10 days. What if the 7 year period of the great tribulation actually begins 10 days before the rapture? When Jesus was on this earth, He said He didn't know the day or the hour. What if He knows now because He is ascended? The last book is actually the Revelation of Jesus Christ as given to Him by His Father and revealed to John. Even John, like Daniel, was given revelation he was not to write down. Revelation only for himself from Jesus.

Regardless, I desire to be God's best friend, like John. I know He is my best friend. I desire to Know and Understand, to be Wise and have the Fear of the Lord just as the sevenfold Spirit spoken in Revelations and cross referenced in Isaiah.

I'm getting to know a gal who is not living her life for God and though she is born again and has a head full of knowledge. I explained to her how she might possibly not qualify to be raptured (one of the virgins who did not have adequate oil in their lamp) and would only realize this when it was too late to repent and re-establish her relationship by giving Jesus all her devotion. The words coming out of my mouth were stern but loving, serious yet full of hope and encouragement. It's not yet too late for her to repent. Today is the day of salvation.

All God had against the church of Ephesus was they lost their first love. Could it be they will have to remain for the great time of testing for all who dwell upon the earth during the great tribulation unless they repent and be restored? Know anyone who is luke warm? Yikes!! They could definitely be playing Russian Roulette with their chances to be spared from that terrible day. What if many who have their name written in the lamb's book of life will fail to qualify and will have the eyes of their understanding opened only to see it when it is too late? Which of the 7 churches are you personally a member of? What about that person in your life whom you know would benefit from this warning? Is your love for God real enough to warn them? Unless they repent, they may have to endure until the end to be saved.