God Will Keep Him Whose Mind Is Stayed On Thee

I was getting to know a couple who have highschool and younger children. Upon listening to them and asking a couple questions, God revealed to me, he (the husband) was being tormented by demons. We discussed what that could mean and I prayed for them much during the week. A week later, at the next housechurch, I revealed to the group how God answered my questions on how to stay humble when His glory comes.

Principalities and Powers Of the Air            .

When i started studying Revelation a couple years ago, I began using my imagination to put pieces of the puzzle together. What if there are more principalities in the realm around us than there are people on the planet at this time? All I know is they are more common and dirversified than I ever realized. They are not to be feared. Being released from the grasp of past sin and many principalities has me also aware how simple deliverance is. For the most part, the process of being freed from them is simple. The difficulty is being willing to recognize them in your life and part of bondage/ captivity Jesus wants to release us from.

Revelation Expands

One January Winter afternoon, as I walked along my neighbor's driveway to give care for their rabbits while they were on vacation, I looked across a wooded area and on the ground of this grey dreary day, I spied a large colorful orange. Upon inspection, it looked in perfect condition, uncompromised. I peeled it. It smelled OK. It tasted OK and I thoroughly enjoyed this juicy orange. As I walked back along their driveway I heard God say, "I can even provide fresh citrus." To which I replied, "That's good because I would get tired of manna."

Two days later, I was walking down a path in my neighborhood that I seldom had reason to take, but I had parked my car down on the street. Halfway down I found myself turn around and look back to see another, much smaller orange, about 8 feet from the path. I went back to get it and continued on my way. After reaching my destination of the home of a client, I took that small orange and put it into my large coat pocket. God said, "If you take that orange into the house you will have to share it with those 4 children." To which I said, "If I don't feel like sharing it I can just leave it in my pocket." About 15 minutes in their home and I was upstairs playing with the kids so my friend could get ready for the arrival of her midwife. I didn't make a conscious decision to share the orange, I just remember sitting on the end of the bed with this tiny orange in hand, starting to peel it and 4 little drooling, bright eyed faces waiting eagerly as if anticipating a candy delight. I divied out one teeny, tiny slice to each and then 2 to me and another to each and then with one section left, I held it up and asked, "Who should get this one? Me?" To which one of the little boys grabbed the slice, hesitated for any objections, and without any, he quickly put it in his mouth. This was a delightful experience.

Upon leaving their home, God said, "I will use you to feed many."

'Well, that's cool,' I thought.

I am learning I seldom truly understand the interpretation of all God says to me and recently I had the thought of the position I may have in the next life of feeding many. Until now, I just envisioned myself speaking to a rock to become bread and passing it around. Since the death of my husband, I have eternity future frequently in my imagination of possibilities.

All we do here, whether a big or small action, has consequences for loss or blessing with our existence on the new earth.

26 Years of Prayer Finally Answered

My husband of 26 years died last month and I have been having the most intimate thoughts of love with the Father for my late husband. I loved him so much and truly respected the intensity of his love for God, me and our children and those whom God put in his path. He often came home beaming with a story of how he had brighten someone's day who was having a real bad day. Tom loved people, every stranger was a person he could engage in conversation and then cheer them up.

I am relieved and satisfied that Tom is dancing with Jesus and at peace in every way. Now I am beginning to see the depth of my love for him in the years of prayer invested for his life and healing. I never saw the the answer to my prayers until he was in the hospital dying. I felt the glory of God all around him and His grace abundantly over my life. I have not had one day where I have not praised God that Tom's broken heart is now completely healed. I never realized just how deeply I loved him until these past few days. I could have shown him more respect while he was with me but I did my best and I can hear Father God say, "Well done Carmen. You are my faithful servant." It is amazing how the painful memories keep fading and deeper revelations of the intensity of his love for me and our children keep coming. But most of all, these past 3 years Tom lost almost everything of material value and he still proclaimed, "I know this was all God's will and I know He loves me," and he continued to serve the Lord.

"Tom, you made me proud. You will be missed. I look forward to our dance in heaven. You are at the top of my dance card." Carmen

The First and Second Resurrections

Revelation says, ''Blessed is the man who endures to the end." He will take part in the first resurrection. Those saints will reign with Jesus for 1000 years while Satan is bound. After that, the second resurrection. I hope I get to hang around long enough to be considered one of the tribulation saints, be part of the first resurrection and reign with Jesus while the saints who went into the grave before lie asleep until the second resurrection. I am constantly exercising my imagination of all that could take place especially if I am priviledged to suffer through many days of the tribulation.

I know the grace of God is sufficient for all situations. He will be glorified.

"Contend For Your Family"

This past year was highlighted most thoroughly by prayer and experiencing the reality of prayer with Father God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. In December 2008, I heard God say, "Contend with
Me."

I asked, "How do I contend with the Almighty God?"

"Contend for your family," was His reply. It amazes me I stopped asking Him questions for greater understanding. Ask, Ask, Ask must become my motto.

Well, I faltered through trial and error, contending for my family. And I am beginning to see much fruit in each of their lives. The last leg in our family tree yet to see results from this prayer vigil for my family is with my marriage and for inner healing of Tom's broken heart.

"Father God, we are created from the dust of the earth and our days are filled with futility and vain endevors. Occassionally, You remove the plank from my eye and I see clearly enough to keep quiet and hold my words. Yet, You require I answer You and give you my strong arguments of all that is in my heart."

"Reveal Your will that I might pray accordingly. Show me, Your servant, what it is You desire of me and what it is You would have me pray."

"Create in my marriage a clean heart and a right spirit. Restore unto us the beauty of Your glory for the ashes of years of conflict, pride and bitterness."

"The glory due You for accomplishing this would be tremendous in the communities of our home town and the town we invested the first 13 years of our marriage. When the many hear of Your great exploits in our marriage, glory and honor and praise will rise to Your throne on such a grand scale and I promise to go to each church fellowship to testify of the great healing and restoration You purposed on our behalf. All glory and honor is Yours and we will take none of it to ourselves. Many will marvel and many will dedicate their lives to You anew when their eyes behold our healed lives and marriage sanctified in the glory of Your Holy Spirit."

"In Jesus' name, AMEN."

10K, 25K or Will Jesus Ever Return?

We must run the good race with all diligence and not lose heart. All the parables in Matthew that refer to the end of the age and the return of the Son of Man have one thing in common. The return of the master, the coming of the Bridegroom and the thief, all tarry. It is after the master had been gone a very long time that the servant he had put in charge said to himself, 'My master isn't ever going to return,' and he began beating his fellow servants, etc. All 10 virgins began to fall asleep, and after the wicked slave buried his talent (life) the Word says, "After the master had been gone a long time..." And since day after day nothing every happened to merrit it anymore, the homeowner stopped locking his door. He probably said to himself, 'No thief ever comes and probably never will.' Locking the house and being prepared for such an event was unnecessary. Lulled with eating and drinking or celebrating a new marriage, etc., the homeowner doesn't think twice about checking the door before going to bed, or (as is the practice in our household) doesn't lock the door behind himself upon entering the house.

It's not a very popular position to hold about the truth of the return of the Son of Man but it is most likely all the exhortation given to the church to remain alert and be on guard is because the day and the hour of His return is much later than any of us bible believers have dared to imagine. But think about it. Laying aside all the indoctrination of what can and cannot be, laying aside all fear or insecurity, isn't it possible all the warnings and parables we are given about the last days and the end of the age and the return of the Son of Man are because things are not going to play out as neatly and easily and swiftly as our hunan natures have conjured up?

Needless to say, I am running this race as one who has trained for a great marathon, not knowing if I will see the finish line at the end of 10K or 25K. I am running the good race, fighting the good fight as if I am to endure the greatest of all tribulations before meeting Him in the air upon His return to separate the sheep from the goats. I don't want to fall short of enduring to the end because I trained for a 10K race only to quit because the finish line is not crossed at that point in time.

He who endures to the end shall be saved.

Multi-facited, Multi-dimensional, Eternal

I began seeing God in His milti-facited personality when I began studying gems and the different styles of cutting gems to maximize their reflection of light. God is milti-facited, milti-dimensional, Eternal. We will all enter eternity future simultaneously with our beloved who have died before us. They are asleep and will remain so until the last trumpet sounds and the dead in Christ arise and all on the earth who belong to Him meet Jesus in the air. God is not bound by time the way our mortal bodies exist. He is currently in the beginning and He is right here with me and He has already judged the earth and executed rewards to all the saints. He knows the beginning and the end, He is the first and the last.

The reason so many God-fearing bible scholars are able to believe so strongly their interpretation of scripture is right and their beliefs are the truth is because of the clarity in which they perceive the particular facet of God they are beholding. No one is able to see Him as He is in His totality, in the completeness of all His facets and dimensions.

Not long ago a friend was reading a book about the 4 views of Revelations and confessed she was confused because all 4 views were opposed to each other and the nature of each view was conclusive only in itself. She asked me which viewpoint was true and I stated, "All of them." To which she replied that was impossible because the very nature of each viewpoint was only it alone could be true. She wasn't in the least reassured and we have yet to sit down and discuss the different facets and dimensions of the last book of the New Testament.

The Helper, Our Teacher

"You have not because you ask not." After asking God what this meant, I began asking Him more and more questions. This has been a very satisfying was of develping my relationship with Him and the Holy Spirit. As a result of His directing me in our relationship this way I heard from Him the explanation of a verse difficult for me to understand, "For where the dead corpses are, the vultures gather." Matt 24:25. In context, Jesus was talking about the return of the Son of Man being as the lightning that strikes in the East and goes to the West. So obvious will the return of God be for all to see. He gave me a picture of people being excited about the "messiah over here" and beconning all to come see him. Jesus warns us not to go there because it is a gathering of dead souls and therefore also many demons.

Recently, I heard teaching The Son of Man will return 2 times because this is the only way many scholars can fit the rapture of the church into their pre-tribulation thinking. There is nothing to support God is going to remove his church from the earth before His return. Both events happen similtaneiously. Just before the last trumpet sounds, Jesus appears with His Angelic Hosts and the dead in Christ arise and we meet Him in the air. The 144 thousand and all believers and all who are asleep in the grave arise to meet Him.

Humility

The most painful and tearful times in my life are during God's answer to my fervent prayer for humility. The process is undeniably recognizable as God's hand exposing the pride and arrogance in my life and my choice to work out my salvation with fear and trembling.

Yesterday I visited with my friend Alenna who has loved Jesus for many years and through many arduous days. She was telling me of Daniel Amen's new book, Brain's Language of Love. He has taken tens of thousands of brain scans and is able to recognize where the brain is broken, and just like an x-ray for a bone, see where and how it needs fixing. He stipulates the brain measures a person's character. I had been telling her how excited I was the economy on a global scale is going to collapse in such a way as to pale the October '29 Stock Market crash. I had also mentioned of a friend who fearfully tucks away money into savings and neglects to do good with the money when they saw someone in need. "Boy, I do not have that problem!" I told her (probably with much pride). She began telling me stories of people and the Great Depression, and the grotesque art that came from that era and other eras of war. I value having a friend like Alenna who has lived and endured so much, as well as, exposed her brain to so many very good books. Our time together concluded with how tribulation produces perseverance, perseverance proven character, and character - HOPE. I am excited for the Great Time of Testing that is to come because I have proven character and great hope!

Well, that was yesterday. This morning, when God awakened me, I was in the same state of mind in which I had fallen asleep. I was groaning at the suffering of the war that rages in my flesh. He had me on my knees and in tears crying out to Him, "Please don't let me think more highly of myself than I ought."

Earlier this week I read a small portion of God's Psychiatry, a book Alenna lent me. Written in the 1960's, the author expounded on the truth in Proverbs, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." I am becoming more aware of the full circle of life that repeats over and over in my relationship with God. I set myself up on high places and God reveals my haughty spirit, His lovingkindness brings me to repentance and He tears down those high places and restores my soul, doing a brand new work of hope. Oh, it is good we have Paul's writings of himself running his race set before him. Romans comforts us in hope.

So, my sinful pride raises me up in arrogance, God opens my eyes to repentance, I choose to repent, God facilitates the tearing down of my idols and raises me up in hope...the hope of His Glory, the hope of His humility and the hope of my proven character.

"Therefore, oh my soul, let hope have it's perfect result that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. Amen."

Am I Asking Amiss?

When we lack trust in God we lack all the manifestations of answered prayer, evidence of God's glory in our lives and peace. A broken, wounded heart sometimes requires another who has already been healed to come along side and show the way. I am being drawn to women who have been married many years and are tired of living with an "angry man." What is interesting is some of these women are even more angry, maybe in a legalistic sort of way, than their husband and are probably the reason their spouse still has a broken heart. They may not be able to see the role they have played in feeding into that wounded and broken heart, injecting the very poison that entrenched the stronghold attached to the unhealed, painful wound. Also, they very likely had their heart broken by their spouse early in the marriage.

When we are able to pray rightly, for His glory, for His name's sake, and for His will to be done; then we are asking rightly. God waited many years for me, longing to hear me ask Him, "What does that mean?" "How do You want me to pray?" What do You want me to ask for?" "How am I to accomplish this?" "Why?" "When?" "Am I asking amiss?" And guess what...I kept asking amiss.

We have not because we ask not. This isn't so much what we are/or are not asking for, but asking God our question upon question until He hears the right heartfelt request and we are able to give Him our obedient response. This will result in Him answering whatever we may ask of Him.

And in light of the blog written earlier today, always pray for His Name to be glorified. We will receive true answers when we pray for His name sake.

Answered From 24 Years of Prayer.

After praying a good portion of 24 years and soliciting the prayers of others for one, the healing of my husband's broken heart and two, the associated bitterness and anger to be gone, I finally asked God why my prayer wasn't yet answered. It was then that I saw the manifestation of unbelief and asking amiss.

This is the paraphrase of my experience with this subject

"God, why, after 24 years praying for this and still it is not answered?"

"Because my Church is suffering from a broken heart and she is harboring a spirit of bitterness."

'Wow...okay.'

Then 3 months later, "What am I praying wrong that this prayer is still not answered?"

"Because you are asking amiss." was God's immediate reply and as I was pondering this information and before I even asked He said, "You ask for yourself and what you will benefit from this prayer being answered."

"OK." So, then, I started to pray for the sake of our children. Again, about 3 months later I asked, "Now what am I praying wrong?"

"You are still praying for his heart to be healed for your own selfish reasons."

I, again, assumed I knew what He meant by that and started (trying anyway) to pray genuinely and purely for Tom's benefit. This time only about 1 month passed before I asked, "NOW WHAT? WHAT IS IT YOU WANT ME TO PRAY?"

Are you able you hear the realness starting to develop in my fervor for this prayer to be answered? I can just imagine the Father quietly saying, 'FINALLY!'

God told me, "When you are able to pray for My Name's sake and for My glory only that this be accomplished and you can be trusted with properly handling My glory when this prayer is answered, and that you will not take any credit for this answered prayer."

He expounded a little more but suffice it to say, n conclusion, "I will share My glory with no one."

'This is the truth He expressed for my serious consideration. I finally had ears to hear these thoughts from God. He prepared the way. Beforehand, I had heard a sermon and later learned during Beth Moore's Breaking Free course: God will not share His glory with anyone. And for a person to take any portion of God's glory for himself is the ultimate pride and the guarantee of his downfall.

Look Back Then Forget What Lies Behind

It is good to frequently take inventory of your life. To forget what lies behind means not allowing anything in the past be counted for us or against us for the purpose of personal gain or slef-deprication. When God forgets our sin, He doesn't choose amnesia to erase His memory. In fact, He has every deed done with our hands, and every thought that passes through our brain and every word that comes out of our mouth waiting for us to inspect and recognize the Holy, omniscient, all powerful, all knowing, all forgiving/ merciful nature of God through the redemptive blood of Jesus. I believe He will obliterate our sin during our private audience with Jesus on that day we stand alone before Him. And He will publicly exalt each and every one of these for each and every one of us at the great awards banquet.

On the day of judgment, each saint will be able to appreciate to the fullest the costly price Father God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit paid for our redemption because we will see clearly and truly comprehend all things. I believe we will have our own private audience with Jesus and He will enable us to experience His blood covering all of our sin and remove it completely from our memory.

Looking back is for confirmation we are headed in the right direction, as much as it is for seeing where we have come from. God will publicly give us recognition for each and every victorious and pure thought, word spoken or deed accomplished that brought Him glory. These we will always be known for throughout all of eternity. Everyone will have complete knowledge of every, and all, good each individual brought into His kingdom for His glory.

That is going to be one awesome awards banquet! And what a wonderful eternal existence we will enjoy.

Now, forgetting what lies behind, press on toward the upward calling of Christ Jesus.

In Ihe Middle Of The Night...AGAIN?

God awakened me unusually early this day so here I am, unable to be disciplined in prayer so I'm blogging. I have been changing much these days, working out my salvation with fear and trembling. I was reflecting on 24 years of marriage and a prophesy an Evangelical Pastor student from India prophesied to me before I knew the word of God or what prophesy was for that matter. This morning God has opened my eyes and ears to hear something very interesting! But first let me start from last week: At Wed. Morning Offering,

God told me, "Love your husband as a woman loves a man."

I cried, "But God, I am still wounded."

"I know," He said.

Then I added, "But I feel he crucified me on a cross and just left me there."

"I understand. I know how that feels."

Later in the hour, we broke into 2 person prayer groups and Cindy prayed with me. I cried the tears of a little child in her mother's arms. Since then, I have been humbling myself as a gentle, kind servant to my husband in ways I have never been able to in the past.

So now, before daybreak and after a time of lying in bed enjoying fellowship with God, but starting to feel guilty for not being on my knees, God gave me the following word of knowledge. But first He had me reflect on what should have been an 11 day journey to the Promised Land that become 40 years of wandering in the desert.

It was an effective combination; reflecting on my 24 years of marriage and the Israeli's grueling journey around Mt. Sinai.

"What was meant to take a few days, required many years." I knew God was referring to my marriage regarding my husband still needing healing for his broken heart (which, as it turns out, is actually a stronghold of witchcraft from his rebellion due to unhealed childhood wounds, but that's a blog for another day).

Then God played back to me a comment I made to Tom 24 years ago after (or during) one of our first and last prayers we prayed together as husband and wife:

I said to Tom, "You always pray such 'Mary had a little lamb' prayers?" And it wasn't spoken kindly. How grossly humbling.

I once asked God to reveal to me how negatively I had influenced my marriage and family after meditating on the wicked/ deceitfulness of the heart. He gave me a good revelation of how my heart had deceived me causing paramount consequences to our family. That was then, and that was 2 years ago. This day, I think I see even more clearly the severity of the wickedness of my own heart and the magnitude of the consequences it has had on our family.

I will be spending the next few days legitimately praying and mourning in sack cloth and ashes.

Oh yea, the prophesy I was given in 1974: "In this world you will have many tribulations but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world. Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me for I am gentle and humble of heart and you will find rest for your soul."

May the merciful name of the Almighty God be praised, for His kindness endures forever."

Evil Must Prevail AND I Must Still Fight

Dear Nancy Grace at CNN,

A Russian Immigrant family was brutalized on their own property by police in Marion County, Salem, Oregon. Police refused to leave even though the reason for the 911 call had been resolved. The family, excitedly speaking Russian to one another for the safe return of their son/ husband, gave police permission to leave and the police refused and became enraged. This is the short version.

Alex (26) went for a walk in the late night without giving notice and his Mom and wife thought he drowned in their pond. They called 911. Alex arrived back home shortly after the police got there and the encounter escalated with Police tasing him for a continuous 60-90 seconds. His pregnant wife was left alone in parent's home as 5 of 6 family handcuffed/ tased/ no rights read to them/ and hauled off to jail. Charges of Rioting were filed. One sister cited is only 17 and an American citizen, born in this country! No media coverage aired though 18 police, ER responders and media present (filming), most of whom watched and laughed. This occurred July 24, 2009. No joke. Please pray for this family and these cops. Please reply if you find this note worthy news.

Fallacious citations of rioting issued. Arraignment 8/24/09 resulted in Judge issuing a court order the family was not to have any contact with one another. Wife to move away from husband and their home of 15 years, 17 year old sister to move away from brother's Corvallis house. This is Salem, Oregon, USA!!!

Marion County has power hungry police, judges, and public servants.

Their attorney appealed and the next day, 8/25/09, with the family traveling a second day to learn court order reduced to kids cannot have contact with parents. Their stories are full of holes and lies. This is an outrage.

I just learned of another incidence in Marion County. A couple rebellious teenagers called police from payphone and reported fallaciously that his Russian parents beat him and all the other kids in the family and though charges unfounded, parents jailed and all children relocated, even 2 week old baby at the time. Imagine being 2 weeks postpartum/ breastfeeding and being taken from your baby. Now, 100 families in Marion County are under investigation by Marion County officials because they signed a petition they supported the disciplinary actions of the Russian couple jailed!!!

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Rebuked In Love

God rebuked me during Morning Prayer because I wrongly handled a prophecy He gave me. I interjected my own thought. It was a painful enough lesson that I learned it well. It will not be a repeated mistake anytime soon. This is what God told me later in the day,

“You are to speak only what I give you. Do not add your words or thoughts to it. Do not venture your opinion or interpretation into it. Do not omit something because you do not understand it’s meaning. I require obedience and a close ear to My word. It is then that your prayer will be heard.”

The prophecy I spoke during morning prayer was: I heard the Father say. "The Holy Spirit is crying at his feet," (the feet of the young man for whom we were all interceding). I then saw a woman kneeling at his feet and wiping the tears with her hair. Before I heard or saw anything more, I had this thought and spoke it out, “It is hard to imagine the Holy Spirit as a woman.” Whereupon, the prophecy ended as I was no longer in the Spirit. I know there was to be more but I had no confidence to continue as the word of the Spirit left me. I pray the continuation of that word be given to this brother through someone else.

I cherish the discipline of the Lord. I find great confidence and security knowing his love will keep me in right relationship with Him and He does this in the gentlest way necessary. Six months ago I heard Him speak most clearly and loudly,

“You will be judged for every word that comes out of your mouth.” I have known of this truth for many years, but with these two rebukes from Him, I know this truth.

An Atrocity

A Russian Immigrant family was brutalized on their own property by police in Marion County, Oregon. Police refused to leave even though the reason for the 911 call had been resolved. The family, excitedly speaking Russian to one another for the safe return of their son and husband, gave police permission to leave and the police refused and became enraged. This is the short version. Alex (26) went for a walk in the late night without giving notice and his Mom and wife thought he drowned in their pond. They called 911. Alex arrived back home shortly after the police got there and the encounter escalated with Police tasing him for continuous 60-90 sec. His pregnant wife was left alone in parent's home as 5 of 6 family handcuffed/ tased/ no rights read to them/ and hauled off to jail. Charges of Rioting were filed.

Arraignment is Tuesday, 8/25/09. No media coverage though 18 police, ER responders and media present, most of whom watched and laughed. This occurred July 24, 2009. No joke. Please pray for this family.

FIVE VIRGINS / ONLY HALF RAPTURED?

What if only 50% of The Church qualified for the rapture. What if only Christians who were completely sold out to Jesus were raptured and the lukewarm, unrepentant or those satisfied with fire insurance from hell were left behind.

Remember the Ten virgin men? Italics mine. What if all ten are of the house of God and five of the didn't have enough oil in their lamp or any extra for the anticipated delay. What if the delay represents times of living our lives as if God didn't really care? or apathy, or laziness, or self satisfaction or satisfaction with what this world has to offer? That is just another reason I believe the church is in for some very rough times, times that appear as if the seven years of tribulation has already begun. But has it? Those who have a true relationship with the Father and keep His commandments, they will survive and endure to the rapture. The great time of testing will be endured by those believers on the fence.

"From the days of John the Baptist, until now, the Kingdom of God suffers violence and violent men take it by force." Matthew 11:12

THE TIME TO BE EARNEST IN PRAYER IS NOW!

To Hate Evil

God desires us to hate evil and the evil way.

The fear of the LORD is to hate evil;
pride and arrogance and the evil way, and the perverted mouth, I hate. Proverbs 8:13

These are my recent focus.

Putting Off the Old Title

I just removed from my identity the first "handle" or "title" that I had embraced as an 18 year old new baby christian.

"A Grain of Sand To Irritate the Oyster"

This is a bold, outrageous lie from Satan. I was able to easily believe this lie as from the Lord because it was a glorified version of my perverted identity when I was lost and part of the domain of the world and dwelling in the lair of deceit. It was even personally modified through the years as I grew in the grace and knowledge of who I am in Christ in order to make it sound more like truth. Therefore, it gradually became "A Grain of Sand To Create the Pearl." I never was this identity but because the enemy had me believing I was, He was able to keep in my life other lies. Many, many lies have died to me as I grew, but God is loosening a few powerful strongholds in my life that are all attached to lies that I held on to tenaciously.

I have been going through Breaking Free by Beth Moore. So far, two very powerful, insidious lies with strongholds in my life are being torn down and though this is just the beginning of an arduous journey, some of the fruit of repentance is already very sweetly tasted.

Praise be to Jesus for His bountiful grace! And for the gracious love of my husband, children and church family.